Com'on girl. . shake it off.

painting by emily martin
aka. . the black apple

. . . having the very hardest of times shaking off this
lonely feeling left over from after the Holidays.
And it's times like these when you think
you will never have the energy or desire
to do anything creative again.
Right now my little one sleeps but any minute
he will wake up and i kind of can't wait
. . when i have too much time to myself the past
few days i start thinking a little too much
about what it's like with my sisters
here and what its like . . without them.

I wish that we didn't have to move so far away from
each other. I wish it was like the "old days"
when families grew up and stayed together. .
of course im talking specifically of when this actually
happened. . and NOT about when families
moved away and never saw each other
AGAIN because there were no
planes or phones or mail or even
pictures!. .
and no facebook.

I want all my brothers and sisters and best
friends to all live together in a quaint
little town and every night we
will have a pig roast or pancakes
and on the weekends we will stay up late at
our little pub laughing with and at each other
whilst the children sleep )

i know. . im so nuts.